"I need to breathe that fire again" 

Brandon Flowers, The Killers.

Ah, 7 more papers to go. I'm taking it one by one, something I learnt from my friends back in TK. The ones who used to do all the last minute studying and yet still do really well. Yeah, I don't see what else I can really do 'cause I haven't even really started on Economics and Chemistry and am only halfway through Physics. I need to up the ante the next five days; I can't believe I had the audacity to even think about catching Paranormal Activity during this period. 

On the flip side, 7 more papers to go and we're done. Whenever I'm revising, I keep picturing a bon fire where everyone is burning their notes, seriously. Then I quickly snap out of that momentary lapse of judgement fearing that such disrespect to the subject might send karma to bite my ass. 

Yikes.

The 7 papers up next,

Please be awesome!

Isn't it sad to know that the only thing standing in your way and the place you know you'll do great in is money? It is, really is. At times like these, I would even go to that show where you tell the truth, yeah The Moment of Truth(?), and tell all my deepest darkest secrets for money.

Rob a bank? Hell yeah. 

Anything, you name it.

Ah. I don't feel like going to any college if I'm not going to Marlboro. Ah.

Ok, woes aside, General Paper (I don't like to write GP; it looks very ugly) was really not that bad at all. The essay was good, I suppose. The comprehension was not bad too though I'm equivocal about the AQ. I think an A might be really hard to get but still it's not entirely impossible. 8]

I'll rant about the papers until the As are over. After which, I promise, I'll do my best to have no exam talk.

Thank god, I have a break tomorrow. 

As Al Pacino best put it in Scent of a Woman, "This is such a crock of shit."

I did numerous Math papers even the past 2 years' A Level, and they chose this year of all years to come up with the hardest paper ever yet with questions I've rarely seen. The paper for the last two years were easy, I swear. I mean I can totally understand that you people at Cambridge need to sieve out the brilliant from the rest but seriously, not everyone taking H2 are naturally inclined at the subject, meaning, don't give so many abstract questions. Really, what a crock of shit. 

The first question totally stumped me. Lo and behold, it had, too, stumped everyone else. And it totally didn't help that my brain only came to me at the last hour. Thank goodness it did though 'cause I managed to solve that simple question with 20 minutes remaining. But just when the brain juice was flowing at its maximum rate and I figured out how to do one whole chunk of question, time was up.

I honestly felt like running out of the hall 'cause it hit me what a hell of 2 weeks these coming ones were going to be like. After finally accepting that and convincing that going to the toilet and running away was never going to work, I proceeded on with the paper. For the first 2 hours, my brain, instead of being full-on Math mode, was repeating and humouring me with lines from Friends. Oh, and also singing songs inside my head. Geez, I pity the girl beside me who had to witness and be around all that flustered and frustrated energy. She's so pretty, I'm sure she's happy. Yeah.

Man I am just hoping for a proper pass for that paper 'cause I know that that white pieces of paper that's going to over to the UK is littered with careless mistakes. Paper 2 better be easy, not easier, but easy. There is no way I am going to retake the As 'cause I know it will be another disaster.

Yeah, but this As will not be a disaster. I have to figure out a way to get around this madness, alive and kicking.

Farah, get well soon. You'll get your bandito soon. 8]

My my, hey hey, General Paper up tomorrow. One of only 2 paper I have a chance at an A.

Please be awesome. 

My my, hey hey
Rock and roll is here to stay
It's better to burn out
Than to fade away
My my, hey hey

Out of the blue and into the black
They give you this, but you pay for that
And once you're gone, you can never come back
When you're out of the blue and into the black

The king is gone but he's not forgotten
Is this the story of Johnny Rotten?

It's better to burn out than it is to rust
The king is gone but he's not forgotten

Hey hey, my my
Rock and roll can never die
There's more to the picture
Than meets the eye

Legendary.

Math Paper 1, tomorrow. I still have yet to finish studying the other subjects geez. My my hey hey. Well, we can make it if we take it slow. Brandon Flowers says so. One paper at a time. Good luck to all those sitting for the As. Let's pray that it is as easy as the Os. 8]

"It's only time; it will go by"

Oh lover, please know what to say
Or hum a tune
A serenade to soothe this heart beating much too loud
Or take it out

Oh lover, please give me something sweet
Or hum a tune
A serenade to sift this bitterness
Or kiss me

Oh lover, we need to calm down

Our chests, they heave heavy
As our hearts, they beat wildly
I'll hold yours,
You hold mine

We'll hum a tune
A serenade to pull us through
We'll hold each other's heart in our shivering hands
As we lay down to bed and wait for a new day

Oh lover, let's never feel this way again
'til kingdom come,
We'll feel with our hands around our hearts
Oh lover, calm me down

Geez, math math math...8[

I can't stop watching this still gives me the chill each time. His tone, the slight nuances, inflexions and intonation is mind-blowing, seriously. Especially when he says, "I've been around,  you know." That slight change in his intonation at "you know" was spot on. F*cking intense.

For the longest time, I've always thought that I was neither incisive nor astute when it came to identifying and critiquing movies and acting, but after watching all these short excerpts, I'm know starting to think that maybe it's 'cause I've never watched great actors and great movies. Yeah, I have got to watch all of Al Pacino's movie. And of course, James Dean's. Soon!

'til then, a few more weeks to go. 

Al Pacino is god.

Hey world, it's a mere 3 days to the As. Isn't it weird how I prepared much much much less for the As than for the Os when the latter is a million times easier? 

Oh well, it's 3 days left and I'm finally getting down to learning my some theorem in complex number. I've practically taught myself definitely 50% of the whole math syllabus; I don't if that makes me a smart or stupid person since I could have just easily spent lesser time if I listened. But if there's one thing I can take away from this whole independent learning of Math, it is that I cannot learn well during a large lecture which has immensely helped me in my choice of liberal arts colleges.

Ah, I can't wait to go to college. I'm probably going to be bumped when I have to leave this place that evokes both disgust and intense feeling of deep affection but I am so excited. Well, that is provided I even get accepted to a college of my choice. We'll see. It ain't over until the fat lady sings. In this case - your life - you're the fat lady, yeah.

This will all be over in a few weeks, can you believe it? Two years. Bam! Not even zoom; zoom still constitutes a slight motion. Bam is like magic; it just appears right in front of you. 

Bam! Just a bit more.

Bam! You're right in the smack of it all.

Bam! It's all over.

Cheers guys.