Ah, just when you think you've seen the hottest of her, BAM, she gets semi-naked though still leaving much to imagination as it should tastefully be. Can she get any hotter??? Yeah huh!!!
Ah, this is killing me. I've got all this bridled energy going to waste. Listening to The Killers makes it even harder. I always feel like oddly, my chest is about to explode. I know the heart is a just a pump pumping blood all over my body, but I'm pretty darn sure this bridled energy is responsible for such vehement palpitations. I feel like a train being held back. Ah, this is killing me.
Ah, now I know where Rufus Wainwright gets his genius streak from - Loudon Wainwright III. I knew his whole family comprised of professional musicians but I had no idea how awesome his father was. "The Swimming Song" is pretty much first class genius. It has totally changed my opinion on folk rock. The lyrics are cheeky just like Rufus' but it's extremely introspective just like Rufus' too. Like father, like son, seriously. Amazing stuff.
For the past few days, the moment I wake up, I'm singing this song or humming the tune and listen to it on repeat all the way to school, then during school, then on the way home. I just love the feeling it gives me. It's like a great big hug comforting me that everyone's a self destructive fool at one point or another but we all survive.
I skipped school today 'cause I'm not feeling well. Strangely enough, I was hoping to skip school today and bam I get a running nose and a headache so it all works out for me as long as it's not H1N1.
Come to think about it, "The Swimming Song" perfectly describes my state of mind; too young, reckless and lazy to care about pertinent problems. Maybe that's why I love the song so much. Oh well, my results have been shit as expected yet there's a huge part of me that is totally nonchalant about them.
I was listening to Gavin DeGraw's Belief on Dick's IPOD and I couldn't help but feel a sense of longing and it sort of brought the reality of my results right in my face. Belief perfectly painted the picture when someone believes in you, more so than you do yourself especially in times of crisis. And yeah other people may say that they believe in you but more often than not, it's just words 'cause they don't even know what exactly to believe in. The only two people in the world that can do that and make me come to my senses and make me feel better are not around. One's probably finishing up his Physics paper right about now while the other is probably teaching her school kids. Yeah, belief is a powerful thing which I really could do with now.
Ah, I'll have to get down to serious business soon whether I like it or not. Let's consider this as me paying my dues before I truly get to do what I want in a few months time. And that can only happen either in California or New York or North Carolina or Austin but definitely in America.
Call me young and naive about the future but what Pearl S. Buck wrote half a century ago, "The young do not know enough to be prudent, and therefore they attempt the impossible - and achieve it, generation after generation," still rings true in this day and age. And it is with that belief and conviction, I'm fearless and inspired, ready to take on the world. Are you?
Roddick, by miles and miles and miles and miles and miles, deserved the title. He was the better player throughout the whole match. Seriously, even someone like me who do not know too much about the technical aspect of tennis could see how amazing he was. And he's trained so hard to get to this point and come so far from where he used to be. He fought so damn hard throughout the match consistently. He's just such an amazing sportsman and person. And a cool guy too. He inspires me man.
Let's make this clear, I have NOTHING against Federer. In fact, I like him and obviously he is the best player to have ever played tennis but CLEARLY he did not deserve THIS Wimbledon title. Sure, he deserves the history and records but no way in hell did he deserve this. Ah, it just sucks that Federer did not even play his best game but seemed like he just coasted and worked hard only when he was down a few points or to win point breaks or in tie breakers - lazy, gifted but lazy; nothing like a true champion.
Geez, the hardest part was when Roddick was just absolutely devastated and yet gave such a beautiful speech. After which, while waiting for Federer to do the winner's walk around the court (or whatever they call it), he was clapping while struggling to keep his cool, and Federer just walked past him.
I'm sure the crowd felt and feels the same way as me. Miko does too; another Roddick supporter. Even they were chanting Roddick's name instead of and after Federer's. If Federer had won after displaying what Roddick did, I would be congratulating him right now on his record-breaking 15th Grand Slam...
I'm not going to try and take away from Federer's win by saying it does not mean much to him 'cause it probably does but I must say, he sure didn't even act like it. I swear if you observe carefully, you'd realise that Roddick got the bigger applause during their speeches. All I'm saying and pissed off about is that Federer, as great as he is, did not deserve to win the title, definitely based on this fucking EPIC match. He was lucky.
Whatever man, Andy Roddick has found a huge huge huge supporter in me now and I'm sure millions all over after the magnificent fight and spirit, everything Federer didn't, he brought to the game. Ah, he'll win soon. Next up, home ground in US Open. If he could win it before, he can surely win this one now that he's better than ever.
Ah, life's good nonetheless. On a huge sizzling side-note, Megan Fox is unreal. If there were a machine that could churn out the perfect female specimen, it would churn out Miss Megan Fox.
I know a girl. She puts the colour inside of my world but she's just like a maze where all of the walls all continually change. And I've done all I to stand on the steps with my heart in my hand.
Right, those few lines were from Daughters by John Mayer which I'm listening to right now. My favourite lines from the song so I just felt like typing it out.
This is going to be a quickie... hah sure, don't we all wish. I doubt anyone got that joke. If you did, well done, you're ready for the big world. Yeah...
Now that JCTs are over, I've got the whole weekend to myself to just chill until Wednesday. I'm going to retract from the world during this period of time to consolidate my thoughts and just get away from people. I don't feel like interacting with people, generally, 'cause everyone ends up disappointing me in the end and I'm left to mend to myself like I always have. Ah, when you're the only one able to console yourself, partly 'cause you do not confide in human beings, you need a respite in something bigger than yourself. Hallelujah, music.
So yeah, I'm going to take time off, indulge in tennis and music, gather my thoughts, mend myself, gain composure and regain focus and new determination to face the rest of the year 'cause I do not want another JCT scenario playing out ever again. Math was fcking horrible.
Haas lost but man his serves are amazing. And I must say, he's gorgeous with his gorgeous eyes and a gorgeous sister or wife (not too sure). Federer is in the final. Now, we're awaiting for the winner of Roddick-Murray match up. Roddick's winning. Whatever it is, I'm promised a great Wimbledon final. And I may have spoken too soon when I said the Wimbledon ladies matches were boring, Venus Williams is, in my opinion, the best grass court female player I've seen thus far in Wimbledon.
Currently, my favourite song to play on the guitar and sing along to. Fleet Foxes is definitely one of my favourite new bands along with Bon Iver. They just are a throwback to the good old days of music. A throwback to great melodies, great lyrics, great music and especially, great harmonies! And best of all, no fcking auto-tune. Ok Bon Iver used the auto-tune effect in "Woods" and in "The Woods(Act I and II)" but I must contend that they used it effectively and tastefully and not to cover up their mistakes or perfect their pitch.
Ah, music like this makes me feel like I can just die (while listening to it of course) without any regrets any moment 'cause I've had the privilege of listening to such great music. It's a great comfort, I hope everyone gets to enjoy it too. Maybe, some people have God and me, I've got my music. 8]
Man this has been one hell week. I wish I could say it like I've given it my all and that I've come out on top but I haven't so this has just been one hell week. I've been only studying at the last minute, last few hours anyways. I'd have a whole day to study but somehow I'll just do everything else but study and only get to it the next day. And I don't think I've ever been this groggy when I wake up. My eyelids will just shut and BAM I'm out. And it's not even like I'm not getting enough sleep; I still manage to get my usual 4 hour of sleep at least.
On a serious note though, I don't feel any big pressure to do well or even pass at all for this JCTs. In fact, I'll make a prediction right now. I'll probably fail all of my subjects with the exception of Chemistry. I kind of screwed up GP, my supposed best subject out of the bunch; I just had no mood to do and my brain just couldn't function geez. Economics was alright but that's a sure fail still. Today's Physics was relatively easy strangely despite the minimal amount of studying I did for it. But then again, I always somehow manage to find a Physics paper easy but the marks, half the time, never agree so we'll see.
One last Math paper tomorrow. Oh god, I've still left Sequence and Series.
More than anything, I can't wait to sit my ass down for hours on end on Saturday/Sunday and just watch all of the Wimbedon finals omggg so excited. Final 4! I'm seriously hoping for a Haas and Murray/Roddick match-up. I love Roger Federer but he surely can win the next time again since he wants his son/daughter to see him win and all in a few years time to come. As for Haas, at the age of 31, tennis aficionados have said that he's playing the best tennis he has ever played after series of injuries. And I can't say I agree or nod 'cause this is my first time seeing him play a Grand Slam. But I alway support the deserving 'underdog' or comeback who beats all odds and Haas just seems like a really passionate and determined dude. Who doesn't love an comeback success story.
Djokovic and Hewitt are out. Man, I would have loved a Hewitt and Haas, the 2 so called comebacks, showdown. As for the ladies, meh. They don't seem as exciting to watch except Safina. HAHA she's hilarious. No Sharapova either so... let's go Haas!!!
I'm going to take up tennis after the As. 8]
Ok, I'm off to watch FRIENDS then study.
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Well how did it happen?
I spent two long years in this strange strange land
